I will most likely have some posts come across as more polished and articulate while others will definitely be more straight from the noggin. At the end of the day I want to write. Sometimes my writing won’t provoke much thought but I find enjoyment and comfort in it anyway. I like to learn. Often…

This is a truth of life that I’ve had extreme trouble understanding. After 4 years of therapy and a boatload of depression, I think I’m starting to get it. Until recently, whenever I felt down and bad about myself, I would feel so incredibly stuck in that state of mind and low, low mood. The…

I’ve always treasured the company of people I’m close with. It’s given me time away from my troubles and that feeling of connection, belonging, and care for each other is my favorite thing in the world, bar none. I have been aware of this part of me for a long time now. When I was…

My first exposure to this concept at all was my first therapy sessions in 2018. I was able to feel the difference in my mood from a few minutes of focusing on my breath. There was one particular occasion where I had absolutely no thoughts at all. It was brief, but for the first time…

Sooooo, most of my life I’ve been told one way or another that gratitude is important. But I didn’t get it. I was raised in a religion where every prayer had some measure of “thanks” expressed, but that was a rote, thoughtless thing for me. I did have a few occasions where I meant what…

Holy shit am I well acquainted with fear. Fear in my life has fueled or continues to fuel anxiety, depression, suicidality and a sense of hopelessness. And don’t get me started on hypervigilance. I am very uncomfortable with uncertainty, and if you look for it, you can find it everywhere. And find it I did.…

Very exciting stuff. I have reflected many times lately how each day is so different from the one before it. It makes me feel alive and it’s such a new nice feeling. I’m interacting with people much more than before and it never gets old. I’m learning things about myself and every time it really…

It’s just another day really. Not in a bad way. I do think it’s a really good thing because it prompts a lot of people to reflect and decide on how they want to change. For me it’s full speed ahead on what I’ve already been doing. A consistent practice of self-love and love for…

So this is one thing I need soooo much catching up with. I understand intellectually that I need rest after intensity, or time after a busy day. But really seeing that limit growing near or being hit is a new sense I’m trying to gain. It is so hard. For years and years I’ve construed…

Dating. short-term, long-term, forever. It’s a really complex thing. In my experience, these relationships specifically really show you who you are and where you’re at mentally and emotionally. The more time I spend with someone, the more comfortable and familiar it feels. It pulls down facades and kills any conscious or subconscious performative behavior. Eventually.…